It's almost Friday...

I have so much to do and little time to do it. I decided to post a blog instead of start packing. I HATE packing..so I will procrastinate.

Monday I went and had parent/teacher conference with Abby's teacher. She had really great things to say and it was comforting to hear. Overall the teacher described her as a social butterfly, creative, an entertainer, and very smart. I'm so proud.=)

We registered her for school on Tuesday. She starts August 24th. =( I thought her Pre-k graduation was going to be end of April but it wasn't, it's May 28th. They are having a surprise party for the kids that morning, and the ceremony is that evening off site. LOL These people are acting like it's high school. lmao! I was getting teared up today just thinking about it! My baby is all grown up, it's all uphill from here. Tuesday Phillip and I also celebrated our 7year anniversary. =)

On another note, Abby has this little friend down the street. UGH! I can't STAND this little girl. She's a year older than Abby, and she's a typical girl already. She tries to act cooler, act older, act like her shit doesn't stink. It's so aggravating. Abby doesn't take any shit off of her though, it's so funny. When this girl starts going off on one of her dramatic, animated stories, Abby's like BLA BLA BLA you can go home. ROFL! Everyday they end up in a fight and it's time for the girl to go home, and I think " good they won't want to play together tomorrow"....NOPE. Every damn day this little girl wants to come play. Even more irritating, the mother sends her over here hungry. WTF is that about?? I mean, I don't mind feeding her but, your house is down the street, if you're hungry...go home. Sheesh!

I can't wait to get the hell out of dodge on Friday. We are taking Abby's long time friend Bailey with us to San Antonio. She's 6 months older than Abby. They are going to have so much fun! Abby doesn't have a sibling so, Phillip and I will get used to taking one of Abby's friends for family trips.

Well I guess I should get packing. =)

Weekend wrap-up...and some rambling

I had a pretty mellow weekend, relaxing. Sadly, I'm going completely blank on what we did Friday night.

Saturday I got my hair cut and colored, I'm pretty much blonde again, but not as light as before. I've been tanning since last week, or I should say burning which is now turning to tan. Phillip, Abby, and I went and had dinner at Applebees which has a pretty darn good deal of 2 meals for $20. You get 2 entrees and an appetizer. It was darn good too. Then we went to Toys R Us to purchase Abby a jump rope and hula hoop. We set off to Stonebriar afterwards to purchase yet some more stuff for Abby. LMAO We got her a SUPER cute two-piece bathing suit from the Disney store. She is still an avid fan of Ariel. She also got a very cute yellow sundress with a small Ariel and flounder on it, and yet another Ariel doll. We proceeded to the movie theatre and saw Wolverine. Abby slept through it. It was ok. I think the next one will be better.

I had intended to accomplish getting a bathing suit this weekend too. I refuse to purchase a new bathing suit until I get my ass in shape-literally. There was this super cute bathing suit at Forever 21 that I set out to purchase....until I put it on. O M G. I will spare you the detailed description of the shape my ass is in. Granted I have been excercising but not consistantly, and I waited too late to start to be bathing suit worthy by this weekend. So for the first time in my life I will wear shorts or a sarong to cover the atrociousness that has become my rear-end. Gotta love having babies. :-s Also for the first time ever I will wear a bathing suit from last year. I know, completely unacceptable.

Sunday I accompanied my stepmother, my sister, and my nieces shopping. My oldest niece is 13-enough said. It was brutal. Then I enjoyed most of the evening with Phillip and Abby watching her hula hoop and Phillip and I teaching her how to jump rope.

I got a disturbing call from one of my very good friends Sunday night. Her husband is an addict. He has been struggling for years with sobriety. He can't manage more than 6 months before falling off the wagon again. She was looking for my advice.Unfortunately two children are caught in the midst of all this. I have been on both sides of the fence. I have been the child who's mother didn't leave, and I have been the mother who had to make a choice. Neither is a pretty place to be. I can't reitterate my opinion to people enough, the importance of getting the fuck out if they are actively using or drinking. Don't stay together for the kids, get the hell out for the kids. My mother did what she thought was best for her 3 children, god love her for that. That's all any parent can do is the best they can with the circumstances at hand. The thing that mothers/fathers struggle with is, how do I explain to my children?

My question to my mother at 14 was, WHY did you stay? Her answer- "because I thought it was best for my children. I couldn't have supported all 4 of us, I wasn't working, god knows what would have happened, and how you would have turned out. You had nice clothes, a nice home, most of what you wanted and everything you needed." My response- "I can't wear those clothes anymore, we don't have that house, and you see how I've turned out now." All of this was brought out in counseling that was court ordered due to the fact that I had runaway more than 3 times, and was locked up at a runaway shelter until they could figure out why I was "acting out". After that day I never asked her again. I was never angry with her about it again, I accepted her answer and knew she really had tried her best. I continued to runaway until 2weeks before I turned 17 and would then be "legal" at that point my mom opted to not call the cops on me again to go collect me. lol As a mother now, I realize the gravity of the decision she had to make, and based on those circumstances and that era, I most likely would have made the same choice.

Can I say what will happen if the mother/father leaves....no. I can give you a pretty damn good idea of what's going to happen if they stay. The longer you expose them to that sickness and the cycle that is alcoholism/addiction the more likely they are to follow in that path. That will be their "normal". They will pick their spouse based on the relationship they saw between an addict/alcoholic and an enabler, and they will start their own cycle. This is also a possibility even if you leave the situation.

My advice to my friend is do what is best for your children's "future". Educate...educate...educate your children on the disease of alcoholism/addiction. If you stay or if you go, get them into counseling, get them to Al-Anon.

This subject always hits too close to home and makes me ache. I too brought a child into this cycle and I wake up in a panic at night in fear of decisions I have made and will make, that may cause irreversible damage to my baby. Quite frankly, my fear is that she will turn out like me.

As always, that's me rambling. ;)

The little things

I had a terrible week last week. I won't recap all that, but I will recap the good things.

I had the best shave of my life using the razor I bought for Phillip! It was as close to a wax as you can get! So smooth! My razor with a brand new blade doesn't shave like that. I'm buying a mans razor this weekend.

I started exercising. Nothing huge, just squats with my pilates ball and stair steps. I'm trying to tone my ass and legs as I will have to get in a bathing suit in less than 2 weeks. Besides that, it makes me feel good. Who doesn't like feeling good??

Phillip got me a tanning membership for Mother's Day! Yay! So even if I don't get all tone, I'll be tan. ;)

Phillip and I are in discussion of going to Las Vegas for our birthdays in August. We're supposed to be going to Korea in September but, that's becoming quite the challenge. Abby starts school in August, she also starts soccer in August. She would be out of school for 2 weeks and obviously miss soccer as well. I'm really pushing to hold off on going until end of this year, or beginning of next. I know it's brutally cold around that time, and there will be enormous heaps of snow but, we have hot weather here. I will enjoy it regardless of the weather.

All in all I feel great, very optimistic. It's a great feeling.

Bad weather

So, some bad weather came through last night apparently. I woke up this morning and took a shower as usual. I was getting ready to blow dry my hair when I heard a dripping sound. I made sure I turned the shower off completely, made sure the sink faucet was off, all were off tight. Then I realized it's the toilet. Well, not exactly. The exhaust fan above the toilet was dripping into the toilet from 2 different places. I take really hot showers so I thought maybe it was condensation, even though it hadn't happened before. So I got up there to try and wipe it off...nope, it's a leak.

So I went about my business of getting Abby up and ready for school, I was just going to tell Phillip when I woke him up. So I got Abby ready and took her into the kitchen to get her breakfast and I looked outside the window and...THE FENCE WAS GONE, in 2 places!! The back part of our fence and the right side!! I was like WTF??! Of course Abby had the answer to what happened "the wind blowed it down". LMAO! I went and told Phillip "Our fence is gone, and the roof in the bathroom is leaking". He shot outta the bed (which does not normally happen in the mornings) LMAO!.

We already contacted the insurance adjuster and appartently it can be as long as 3 days before an adjustor can come assess the damage. Phillip already found someone to replace the fence and fix the leak in case the insurance doesn't cover it. We have to contact HOA to find out if responsibility of the fence is split or if it in fact belongs to the other neighbors. The inside part of the fence faces them, not us. Usually that makes it their fence, their responsibility. We'll see.

I sign Abby up for soccer in June, she starts playing in August. She's SUPER excited. I have to register her for school on Monday :( at least I have the day off. I need it. She will do summer camp May-July, she gets to do a field trip every day, and play in the water every day. They have lots of other fun activities lined up that are not coming to mind at the moment. So she will be busy this Summer. My sweet princess.

I'll keep you posted on the fence.

****UPDATE
Forgot to mention the name change debaucle. Apparently if I'm getting married and change my name, I'm not a terrorist. But since I'm not marrying and I'm changing my last name I have to submit fresh fingerprints for the FBI to do a background check, submit a petition to have my name changed, and get an order signed by a judge okaying the name change, THEN I pay $208 on top of all that. What kind of fuckery is that??

Lazy Sundays

Sunday is always a good time to post. Not much going on usually. This is my day to relax.

Friday Phillip, Abby, and I went and watched softball home run derby at Big League Dreams in Mansfield. Jeff Hall was there (professional softball player for those who don't know). Phillip's dream is to travel and play softball...and get paid for it. LOL

Saturday Abby and I went shopping (for her), ate lunch at Sonic (her choice) and went and saw Monsters Vs. Aliens in 3D. It was a cute movie. I wish I had my camera with me, my phone doesn't have a flash. She looked so cute with her little glasses on. She kept grabbing at the stuff coming out the screen. It was funny. She ended up not wearing her glasses, she said it freaked her out with those things flying at her. LOL Phillip played softball all day Saturday, came home at 3 a.m. Unfortunately some sports complexes run weird brackets. Sometimes you only played 3 games all day, but you've been there 12 hours. Screw that, but softball enthusiasts don't seem to mind.

Today Abby and I had lunch with my dad while Phillip mowed the lawn and then caught up on his missed sleep. I had a small nap. Now Abby has her friend over and they're playing dress up.

Tomorrow Abby and I are going to get our passports. $100 a person!! Sheesh. I've decided to legally change my name to Kim. Abby starts school in August and I don't want to have a different last name than she does. Who knows if or when Phillip and I will get married. Maybe our 10 yr. anniversary? Neither one of us are a fan of it. We've considered it several times, and the planning becomes stressful and we just say fuck it. I think it's unnecessary. For all intents and purposes we are husband and wife, all we lack is the piece of paper. Some people think it's not a marriage until you have a piece of paper. Those people have alot to learn, I wish them luck. Phillip and I will celebrate our 7 year anniversary on May 19th.

That's my excitement for now. =)

Blah...

Been a busy bee here. Abby is Miss popular so I've had birthday party after birthday party for WEEKS now. They're her school friends which always makes it awkward for me when attending them. Most of the parents are significantly older than me, and on the snotty side. They all drive BMW's and Lexus' and look at me funny for rolling up in a Hyundai.

I got her graduation pictures! Yes...graduation. Shut your mouth, when you're kid gets there you'll be all about it! She's graduating from Pre-K and going to big school. :( They are so cute!! The link is http://www.photogifts.lifetouch.com Portrait id C00045-08041 Access code HX6N, if you want to check them out. There is a graduation ceremony on April 28th, I'll post pics from that too.

I can tell Summer is vastly approaching. Phillip is playing softball 2 nights a week for now. By the time May rolls around it will be 4, by June it will be 7. I'm a softball widow. He has a Korean team he plays on too, so we will be traveling to other cities at some point I'm sure for tournaments. Phillip's brother is probably coming to visit sometime in May. We're going to Korea in September, I'm in the process of getting mine and Abby's passport. I have the paperwork filled out, just have to get our pictures and go deliver the paperwork. We have to physically go down there since neither of us have ever had a passport. Phillip already has one. We have a semi vacation end of May for my grandmother's (dad's side) birthday. It's my birth place San Antone. We'll do Sea World and the Alamo, and of course the River Walk. At least it's time off and I don't have to do anything. It will suffice even though it is not the vacation I've been longing for :)

Abby was supposed to be getting her tonsils out this Friday, that might be postponed. I have a blood disorder that is genetic, the mother is the carrier of this disorder. I took her to the hematologist on Thursday to have her tested. He was a total jack ass. Anyway, he didn't order her bloodwork stat since this is an "elective" surgery not an emergency. Once they confirm she has it they will have to test different treatments to see which one makes her blood clot. Since he didn't order them stat I most likely won't know the results until Wednesday or Thursday which clearly leaves no time for the additional tests before her surgery Friday. Very aggravating.

That's my update for now. I'm going to go finish being lazy. =)

Don't bite the hand that feeds

You all get the benefit of reading my rant. Two HUGE pet peeves of mine are as follows.

1) People who draw off of you like a leach, whether it be emotionally or financially, and then deny you ever contributed anything in their life and say they did it all on their own.
2) People who enable the above types of people.

Everybody in life needs help at one time or another be it emotional or financial. The worst thing to do to someone who has helped you in either category or BOTH is to deny them your gratitude. There are some people (namely the ones in category #1) who go through life without ever earning anything they have. Why? Because people in category #2 come to the rescue and clean up their mess, ergo preventing category #1 from accepting any responsibility or full consequence for their actions. What type of results does category #2 create you might ask?? Let me enlighten you. It creates ingrates who continue to make the same decisions over and over, blame everyone else because they keep getting the same result, and also encourages category #1's attitude of "the world owes me" and "I've always been so mistreated".

I'd like to address category #1 first.
Everybody has a sob story, and I assure you there are people with far worse ones than the ones you have conjured up. Accept responsibility for YOUR decisions, the results are YOURS and YOURS alone. Appreciate the help you receive, and give credit for it.Try to make better decisions to prevent having to ask for it again since you have such a hard time admitting you received any in the first place!!

Category #2.
Stop cushioning the blow of category #1's repeated stupid decisions. You aren't helping. You can help by telling the truth and pointing out the obvious, and teaching them how to make decisions. Cleaning up their mess and protecting their feelings only encourages their self pity and also gives them comfort as they plan yet another bad decision to make.

Thank you. **End rant.